because you need to call her
A quick Google search tells me that 25-40% of the population are introverts, which means that 60-75% of you may not relate to anything I’m about to say, but then again, maybe you will, because even amongst those extroverted ones are women who are overwhelmed with life whether it be from work, mommying, both mixed together, or the other seemingly endless array of things that fill up our day, leaving us exhausted at the end, without mental space or literal time to commune with another in a relaxed fashion.
But, still, my instagram feed is filled with “friends” who always seem to be together. They’re hanging out, going to dinner, going on trips, sitting on their porches, and just being. I’m envious, yep I said it, envious. Confession must come before repentance, right? Is that really just a natural part of other’s lives. Do they not mentally weigh out all the pros and cons of their to do list verse social needs verse underlying insecurities before planning a simple meet up with a friend. What must that be like? My world may never know.
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because I want to remember what being the temple means
Let it be said now and forevermore, who cares when you learn something, what’s more important is that you learn it. Have you ever seen those memes, twittter posts, FB statuses, etc. that say I was today year’s old when I learned ______________________? For example, last weekend I learned that the Washington Redskins, now Washington Football Team is based in D.C. I had thought for my entire life they were in Washington state. I might have received a bit of a gasp and astounded look from my oldest, but other than that, all I got was new information. You really do learn something new everyday.
Lightbulb moments do not have to just pertain to brand new information. Sometimes they can happen from a shift in thinking, a sentence that changes a perspective, an ah ha that fits an added piece into a present thought. Those are my favorite. It’s like wiping your glasses and putting them back on again. You could see before, but now it’s so much clearer.
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because life as we know it will always be ending
You see, when I was born, life as I knew it ended. When I got married, life as I knew it ended. When my first precious boy, and each of the following equally precious ones, were born, life as I knew it ended. When my husband confessed to being unfaithful, life as I knew it ended. When I stared into his eyes and renewed my vows for forever, life as I knew it ended. When my oldest son starts high school next year, when the last one moves off to college, when I hold my first grandchild in my arms, when I close my eyes to the earth and wake up in the presence of my Creator, life as I knew it will have ended. At the end of every day, whether full of love and joy or full of heartbreak and tears, life as I know it ends. And I praise Jesus for it, because it is only when one thing ends that a new thing can begin.
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because its the year that something changes
Eric Peters has lots of songs, but there is one specific one that has been on my mind lately. This particular one was mine and Zach’s anthem at the end of 2013, the year that brought trauma, but the year that also sprung hope. Its chorus begins with “Ha Ha, to the old year,” though if I used my “workout words” Ha Ha would be traded out for something far less flattering. So, as to not shock my mother’s ears, or any of the others who haven’t had the opportunity to hear me speak in the midst of the anger sparked by trauma and that can still rear it’s ugly head at times, we’ll just leave it at Ha Ha.
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